I've been having fun! In the past, I let social media and all the bullying I went through in school get to me. I took my granddaughter see the Taylor Swift movie and I learned something about what it takes to be noticed. I dealt with my share of bad things that have happened. I am a child abuse survivor, I suffered from an eating disorder, I was shamed and made fun of, I was told I was fat and not good enough. When we are teenagers, the front part of our brain is still developing. What we soak in and what we see can affect us at an early age. I let what people think about me ruin my life. Therapy and learning a lot about myself helped me not care about anyone's opinions. I've been writing for 50 years, I taught myself how to play piano and guitar. I can't read music and I am trying to get recognized by writing great books about situations many people go through.
To get back into the Taylor Swift thing. I know how she feels. I've worked so hard to get to where I am despite the bullies and the shamers out there. I support anyone who has been through crap. Anyone who has been neglected, unloved, abused, shamed, or trapped in a domestic prison I praise you for the effort you put forth to get recovered. This is what I write about. I am a storyteller, someone who puts themselves in a positive scenario and comes out victorious. I used to write about women who were abandoned and neglected and afraid to get close to anyone. Is there anyone out there who can make a difference for that person? There is! Sometimes the triggers come and go, making you feel helpless. That's not playing the victim. That is the cry for help. I love to write more than anything else I do. Even though I have done many jobs, I have always wanted to make it big writing a good story. Deep inside, I am a real person who has a good heart. I don't smoke, I don't drink, I am supportive, I am a good wife and mother. But I am NOT perfect. I have anxiety, and difficulty feeling confident. I guess you can say, I want to help someone feel better about themselves.
When I listen to anyone who writes a song about being dumped or left alone to deal with heartbreak, those are the lyrics that stick with us. This is why I like Taylor Swift songs. Poets know how to move someone's heart to cry, let out the pain, feel the lyrics. Maybe some of you are not fans. I like to use some of my favorite artists who express pain and ask the question, WHY? She is just one example of someone who writes from the heart.
As an author, I can't compete with all those out there who have been in the industry most of their lives. I have only been an author since 2021. Overnights are not for any accomplishment. If you have the energy or opportunity to get recognized, bravo to you! Truly. I am happy for those who work hard but most of us had to let experience take the wheel. It's never too late for anyone.
I know I don't get a lot of readers of my blogs. Many have thought, "Who is this woman who wants to make it big in the book business?" I am just an average person who does what she loves. Everyday, I work on promoting myself. I go to book fairs, I give away books, and I talk to people who are looking for something I have to offer them. Those who are looking for a good story that is not full of F Bombs.
I am currently writing a book about a young girl who is physically abused by an alcoholic mother who has her own issues. This book has a trigger warning because I don't know who is sensitive to the subject. It is a very detailed story, fictional of course. It is also a story about recovery and getting your life back. It took me 30 years to get over child abuse. I had those times when I felt like a rag doll, just flung around by so many abusers. From the time I was in grade school until I was an adult, I was in dangerous situations. My anxiety left a bad mark on some who thought that was permission to harm me. Mental abuse is just as painful. I don't like that people think if a celebrity gains a little weight or they show their age, they have to have an opinion about that person. That's a human being, who is just being them. We need to be nice to those out there because we don't know their story. Sensitivity comes in different colors.
When I write about violence, I don't make it extreme. It's just enough to see what that character is going through and will they come out of it? Love is the factor that helps with the healing. I don't use expletives of any kind and I don't use words to describe a stubborn woman. There is a tenderness about the stories I write. This kind of tenderness is not for everybody. But there are some out there who are looking for subjects that I write about. I am exploring different subjects and writing about tougher situations. I remember a therapist telling me a story about a little girl who was kept in a cage until she was 12 years old. She lived in horrible conditions and was fed dog food and hosed down with a water hose. After she was rescued, she went into recovery. She got adopted by a nice family and worked on getting her life back. When she was in her twenties, she started becoming a motivational speaker and then a CEO of her own company. I was never told her name but this therapist treated her. This was a perfect example of a girl who was determined to better herself. I love that about anyone who gets that opportunity. We don't have to let the world consume us. We are in charge of this life, it belongs to us. Never let anyone take away your sparkle. (Something I used to tell my daughter.) Yes, the trauma may still be there but you are the one who controls the journey. With help, we can all feel better when we have been hurt.
I have autographed many books. I have been told that my books make someone cry. I put surprises at the end of my stories. There is so much to enjoy. Putting myself out there is very personal. With the support of my loving husband and family, I continue to branch out and produce many more books that touch the heart! 💖👍
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